Writing So I Can Sleep

I should write more often. It is most certainly a character deficiency that I write as little as I do. I don't sleep well. It takes me a long time to fall asleep at night. My thoughts bounce around in my head. Maybe if I wrote them out of my brain each day they wouldn't torment me so much at night. Lately, it has been thoughts about my son, Ethan James. He is ten, gonna be eleven at the end of September. He has been having seizures. CT scan revealed that the seizures are not being caused by tumors or brain injury... so that's good. But he is still having them, probably five to ten of them a day. When he is falling asleep at night the frequency increases. I get a terrible feeling in my gut every time I witness one. It seems so alien to watch. How can your brain turn on you like that? I know that God is in control. I believe that with all my heart. I know that He is full of love and mercy and grace for His people. I believe that. I also know that this is no guarantee that His people will not have to suffer, in fact, in recent years I have come to discover that this love almost always results in suffering. Weird, I know. Odd, yes. But true... maybe that is what I should write about next.